| GOD IS SOOOOO GOOD!! LIFE IS GREAT! |
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| summers almost over!! BUMMER! everyone is leaving me to go to state so that's probably where ill be spending most of my time, well there and southern! im excited actually.. im gonna try to put on a good face for classes starting back b/c maybe i wont be so overwhelmed...i dont kow..but its worth a try! i love my new job! and im making a lot of money sooo that's good and maybe ill be able to get my apartment next year!! but my lifes been going pretty good lately, we're remodeling our house so that's kinda hectic right now but it's going to be really pretty when we get done with it! college bible study is awesome and it only gets better and better everytime..and me getting to help with music is awesome too b/c it's something ive been wanting to do for a whlie now...but i gotta get ready for work so im gonna quit writing! i hope everyone has a great day and happy birthday to Madison (21) and Lauren (18) i love yall!!!!!!! God Bless!! dotn ever forget what God has given you! and never take it forgranted..b/c i did..and im still working on getting it back..but last week went pretty well so we'll see!!!! MWAH! |
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| wwooooww i just updated! this is crazy.. i forgot how much i missed xanga b/c i can actually write exactly what im feeling .. im not gonna do that tonight..ha b/c that is toooo much to type..im just gonna say God is GOOOOODDDDDDD !!! have a great night week, year or w/e!! |
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| ok...wow, so things have gotten somewhat better,and i feel selfish for saying that they have only gotten somewhat better bc so many ppl have been trying to pull me up and make me smile...and it's been working..b/c ive been soo happy, it's just that 4 nights ago i realized i had been hiding stuff inside, like from myself..and it all just came out at once..and i just started crying b/c i realized these things..and i dont really know how to deal with them b/c i thought they were gone..then the next night, friday night,it happened again..and everything i felt came back..and i dont know how to get rid of it, it's just like one thing triggered EVERY feeling ive ever had..and all the sudden you get butterflies in your stomach bc you have no idea why you are feeling these things, b/c its the LAST thing in the world you wanna do, or feel..im just so confused/stressed/ whatever you wanna call it..i could have something better than i ever deserved.. and im scared to, but right now i cant..i feel like i have and that i do strive for the least b/c thats all i feel i deserve at times..especially when the most amazing thing is right in front of me..i guess its just that right now and for awhile maybe,well i dont know how long, i just need to try to put my head back on my shoulders and realize where i want myself to be .. bc right now im all scattered around and i know where i wanna be but i just cant right now b/c if i am i know that someone will get hurt, or i will hurt someone..and im not putting myself or them in that position at all |
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| hey yall.. ok....so i havent written in like a week..lol and im loving writing on this thing again b/c i can so like stuff that i need to get out and tehre is like noone that reads it anymore....soooo things havent been going too wel for me! but HEY what's new..i guess ill learn my lesoon noe of these days! but yea so anywyas..im sitting at regans house with him cam and steven watchign some movie..i have no clue what it is.... and it's messing up so it's not like we're actually getting wo watch it.. but o well.. school only has about 4 more days until SUMMER! i cant wait..im so ready to get on trips and get away from here :) ..... friday is our talent show for church thank goodness and i cant wait either bc me and kelly finally get to sing together! we've been waiting to do this forever..and it's gonna be awesome sooo come watch it if you want to! we're singing Jesus take the wheel by carrie underwood~ it's going to be really pretty !!.... today i was a bridesmaid in my cousin's wedding! and it was so pretty i almost wanted to cry /c she looked gorgeous!!! it was so weird seeing her getting married b/c she's still young to me even though she's 25 it rained but it was still pretty ! i as there from 10 until about 7 or 8 tonight.. and i was in 3 inch hills the whole time..my feet are killing me but it's all worth it!
seeing everything i did today, i realized how blessed we are to have ppl taht love us.. and taht God has that one special person for us in our lives!! yea we get heartbroken sometimes.. but think about it this way, if you think taht person was awesome and special .. and made you smlie, then think about how awesome and special the ONE person that God has for you... it's so amazing to think about!
but im gone i hope yall have a good night and God Bless! GOD WILL MAKE A WAY! |
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